Friday 10/26/12

Friday is Ho-Hum day.

I went for my walk this morning but with a severe stomach ache. Afraid that I will mess myself, I kept it short, 25 minutes and I didn't go too far or too fast. I was able to walk 1.75 miles burning 142 calories.  I felt great after my walk and towards the end.  I am not sure why my stomach is hurting.  I am thinking it may have something to do with my coffee or anxiety quite possibly both.

This is my meal plan for the day

Breakfast:
8:45AM:  greenbeans, chicken, rice stirfry made at home

AM Snack:
10AM: apple

Lunch:
1PM: apple & banana w/ stir fry.

PM Snack:
4PM:  granola bar

Dinner:
7PM: not sure yet.

Seeing this will hopefully keep me on track.  I am not hungry but I have been eating to self soothe my stress while at work.  I am not sure where all of this anxiety and stress came from exactly.  I have been in my current position since August 1st and I was experiencing stress at my previous position which is why i was looking for a new job.  I am trying to get acclimated to my new surroundings but there are things at this new place that bother me. I hope I will get over it soon. 

I feel like I am experiencing a great loss and I know it is due to the fact that I am no longer in a relationship with a certain person.  I thought I would be friends with said person for a really long time.  Moving jobs has opened my eyes to how it really is and it hurts.  I decided that I don't want this person in my life due to the strain he is putting on me and all of the frustration doesn't seem worth it.

I constantly feel like I am better than what I do for a living.  I feel like I am destined for better and more but why aren't I doing more?  I feel like I don't have anyone in my life that believes in me or who wants to see me succed.  I am not sure why I feel this way but I do not have a support system in my life.