On days when my schedule changes and I am in a new place like training for example I am totally off of my game. This is even when I plan for such things. Take today for example, I packed my lunch and I planned my meals for the day and I am still hungry, uncomforable and I feel so bloated and fat and disgusting it is unbelievable.
This is my meal plan for today::
Breakfast:
Banana
AM Snack:
Apple
Lunch:
chicken and rice burrito: 370 calories
PM Snack:
Apple
Dinner:
?
All I know is I text Zack last night and we got to talking for a bit about what has happened but not really in depth. He wants to get together for lunch today but we didn't set a date. It is Tuesday and if we do lunch on any day it will have to be Thursday or Friday. I don't really care which one just not tomorrow. I need to get my paycheck first. I am feeling really broke right about now. I told him that I feel like he doesn't like me at all and he said that he was sorry to hear that. I guess we haven't gone on a really good lunch since august. that is according to him. he says that a good lunch is one with decent food and a good talk and it has been a while.
I didn't realize just how emotional I am. I am a total mental case. I am experiencing a loss of some kind due to starting a new job. I am unable to identify the loss. I don't know if it is Zack or if it is the entire workplace. I feel really pathetic. I know I was there for five years but I mean really. Get over it Bailey.
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