Thursday 11/29/2012

I am feeling great this morning and I am looking great. I feel like there is some good news coming.  I don't know why I feel this way but I am very hopeful for some awesome news.

11/27/2012 Tuesday

I have my first mental yoga session today and I am looking forward to it.  I have no idea what to expect but I am hoping that it helps me relax.  I have to run a few errands today and I don't want to so bad I just might put it off until tomorrow.

Breakfast:
chicken burrito 390 cal

AM Snack:
fuji apple
peanuts

lunch:
chicken chimichanga

pm snack:
peanuts
triscuits

Dinner:
?
i never really know what i am going to have for dinner until its 6pm.

Monday 11/26/2012

I am back to work.  I was dreading it all weekend but today isn't that bad.  It is only 9am so maybe I shouldn't speak so soon.  I am really beginning to wonder if all of my stress is in my head and self inflicted.  Oh well if it is.  I am just trying to realize things about myself.

I left a giant mess in my home.  I was cleaning and organizing my bedroom which I haven't done in a really long time and during that process I neglected to pick up my living room and kitchen.  I don't know why I do this but I cant seem to have everything clean at once. only one space at a time.

11/21/2012 Wednesday (day before thankgiving)

Good Morning,

I feel really nautious this morning.  I went for my walk but felt like I was going to puke the whole time so the walk took forever to do.  It was an easy drive into work this morning seeing as it is the day before thanksgiving.  I really shouldn't be at work myself but I am.  i love easy days at work.

This morning I forced myself to eat two eggs over easy with some tater tots.  I dont have much of an appetite today but i figured i should eat something. When I get home today i plan on picking up my place so i dont have to worry about it for the rest of the week.  i am tried of it looking so bad.  i dont know why i am so lazy when i get home i just am.

breakfast:
two eggs
tater tots

am snack
?

Lunch
?

pm snack
?

dinner
?

11/20/2012 Tuesday

Tuesday

went for my 2 mile walk this morning and i am sluggish these days.  it used to take me less than 30 minutes and now its almost 40 mins.  I think it is because i am trying to get my running in and i am not a strong runner so when i stop i slow down a lot.  anyway,  i walked 2 miles today and it took me 37 minutes and i burned 233 calories so i am very glad about that.


Breakfast:
english muffin
cheese
ham
egg

Snack
peanuts in shell
granola bar

Lunch:
soup

Dinner:
?


I feel really great this morning.  I am relaxed and stressed.  My sleep was a bit distrubed and i am not sure why.  I was thinking a lot.  I am worried that my feelings for someone are one sided and that I am imaginging things that arent there.  I will have to wait to see this person again before I can be more sure about this change.  i feel like things are different and that he is making an effort to change things because he is ready or maybe he is messing with me.  i am nto sure but i am excited and it worrys me that i am excited for nothing or only to be disappointed later.

11/19/2012 Monday

I feel well rested.
I went for a walk today and used my pedometer.  It went well.  I really liked the apps.  The funny thing is i used two apps so i could compare the two and according to one i walked 2 miles and the other i walked 1.56 miles.  i am curious which one is correct.

I have been feeling a bit nausous but it may be due to the movie i was watching earlier.  I also have been a tad bit dizzy.  i am not sure if that is because i am thirsty or if its a side effect as well.  i am going to document these symptoms i am having just in case i need to make changes to my dosage.
 
Breakfast:
1 apple
AM Snack:
chicken, pasta, cheese
Lunch:
chicken, pasta, cheese
PM snack:
whey protein shake
Lunch
?

11/16/2012 Friday

Okay, so I am very excited.  I have a new jam.  I have been listening to it every since last night when I first heard it.  I love it.  :-).  It is the little things that make it worthwhile.  Happiness is important to me.

Anyway,  I started my period 3 days early which is upsetting to me considering that I was just bleeding two weeks ago but whatever. I am making it a point to track these things.  That's how I know that I am officially an adult.  All of this grown up stuff.

I took my third pill yesterday around 9pm and I feel just fine.  I woke up a few times last night but I think that was because of the rain.  I am sleeping with socks on so there's something going on there.  I never sleep with socks on because i get too hot.

It was raining last night.  I feel great.  Very optimistic even though I have stomach pain.  I am doing alright.  I am looking to plan my next vacation to Palm springs and I dont want to do a thing while im there other than massage and sit by the pool with a beverage and read a book.  that is my kind of vacation. now that i have gone there, i know what to expect and i am comfortable planning another trip.  i hope next spring i am able to afford another trip.

Afternoon

OK.  I feel like I have had a slow burn.  I had lots of energy this morning and this afternoon totally done.  what is that all about?  Maybe i should just take this pill in the morning. i noticed when i went to the rest room that i am bleeding again.  is it time for my period already?  goodness. these seem to be coming more frequently.

11/15/12 Thursday

I went for a run today and I was able to go farther than yesterday so that felt good.  The only thing is that I keep getting this saliva choking thing going on so I have to spit it out.  I am not sure what that is all about.  I had this yesterday but this morning I drank a lot of water so I thought that would fix it and it didn't.  I am wondering how I can fix that.   Anyway, I didn't go as far as I did yesterday.  I didn't see the point because I really pushed myself yesterday and I dont think it would be worth it to be exhausted today for no reason.

Yesterday was day two of my new meds.  Instead of taking them in the morning I took them when I got home and I don't see a difference.  My sleep last night wasn't as good as the night before.  I am feeling very optimistic and I like that.  I am taking note of my feelings just to track my progress.

I didn't have much of an appetite yesterday so we will see what is up today.  I didn't use the restroom enough yesterday either but this morning made up for it.  I don't remember if that is a side effect of this medication. 

I feel like I am headed in the direction I want to be in.  I am looking to work on my place and do some home improvements.  I want my bathroom to be like the spa i went to on my birthday.  i need to change the lighting and to paint it.  white walls are not theraputic for me at all. might want to get new shower doors put on as well.

i also want to redo my kitchen.  new countertops and new sink also remove the cabinet doors and brackets remove the paint and put them back on.

Wed 11/14

I feel great today and all it took was a few days away.  A massage, a pedicure and a couple of visits to the doctor.  Man, i haven't felt this good ever!  I know I made the right decision. 

zack and i have been in contact.  people have been showing love.  things are great so far.

Thursday 11/08/2012

I finally was able to take my measurements this morning.  I wasn't feeling realy bloated so I figured it was the perfect time.  I haven't purchased a new scale just yet and I am alright with that for the moment only because it really upset me and I don't want it to be the end all be all of my happiness with my fitness successess and losses.

waist: 38; Hips: 42, chest: 42, thights: 25, Right Arm: 14, Left arm: 13.5

I have been in training all this week so i have been feeling fine.  I went to lunch with Zack yesterday and he wants to have weekly lunch sessions.  I guess he missed me that bad.  good, ya jerk.

I had lunch with another friend the day before yesterday and she was happy to spend the time.  which means i am not the mean and evil person i thought i was. i dont know why i think so badly of myself.



Monday November 5th, 2012

My birthday is in a week and I don't know whether I should be excited or depressed.  I mean I am starting to get up there.  Anyway, I just spent last weekend in Palm Desert and I can't wait to go back.  I had such a great time with my crew.  They were awesome. Next time, new hotel and total spa weekend.

This morning I walked to training and did a mini walk around the area so I have only walked 1.5 miles today.  I am disappointed but I had to hit up the grocery store for some food because I didn't bring a lunch.

I am feeling better today and I think it is because I got out of town.  I need to do this more often and I say that everytime I go out of town. I am just really bad at planning travel type events. 

Breakfast:
granola bar

AM snack:
burrito

Lunch:
1/2 chicken club sandwich

PM snack:
1/2 chicken club sandwich

Dinner:
apples w/ peanut butter and almonds

Wellness Coach

Had my first session with my wellness coach this morning and it went well.  We discussed my goals and action plan for Fitness.  I shared my current activity schedule during the week and where i want to be and she explaned that I am on the correct path and that I shouldn't add anything extra on my to do list.


My Action Plan
This week:
Walking 2 miles 3-4 days a week in the morning

Track how long the walks take.  Go from 35-40 minutes to 30 minutes.
Purchase a scale.

This weeks goal: Walk 2 miles in 30 minutes or less.
Short Term goal: Run 1 mile without stopping
Long Term goal: Run 5k race in 2013/Zombie run

Notes:
Increase the intensity now that you have been doing this work out schedule for a while.  Keep in mind that fitness/weight loss is a mental process.  You may benefit from positive motivation.  Feed the mind with positive models.  Such as..

~articles
~friends w/ healthy life styles
~family
~fitness buddies

make some friends and spend time with people who have a positive lifestyle with fitness.

Think to yourself how do you want to look instead of "I dont like how I look"

you positive mantra this week is.

"I want to do this for me"

fitness DVDs: if you feel up to it do one here and there but don't make it a mandatory activity.  Once you become more used to your schedule add it on a consistant basis.

Friday November 1, 2012

I love my new iphone.  I feel like I am finally up to date with my phone.  It is my first smartphone.  Yes, I know that is a tad bit sad but it is what it is.

Before I start writing my food consumption for today I have to note that I havent had much of an appetite this whole week and I am not sure what that is all about but there it is.  i am experiencing some new symptoms this week.  Yesterday, I was real bloated all morning and then it resulted in abominal pain and followed with bleeding.  Now I am not sure what that is all about.  I felt contractions/vibrations in my uterus and this is all new to me.  I have no idea what that is about. In my panic state, I emailed my doctor yesterday asking if I should be concerned.  I have an appt next week to see what is going on .  when the nurse called me back she made it sound extremely urgent.  now, what is going on?

Breakfast
Spaghetti w/ fritos 1 cup

AM Snack
Spaghetti w/ fritos 1 cup

Lunch
spaghetti w/ fritos 1/2 cup

PM Snack
chicken breast w/ a cup of noodles.

Dinner
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