Goals

I did it.  I have sucessfully reached my weekly goal this week of burning 1500 calories through fitness.  Yes!  This feels great.  I talked to my wellness coach so she will now keep me accountable with doing my walking 3 times a day five days a week as well as running my first 5k.  i am so excited and nervous about this one. i havent been losing weight but i have been building endurance so i will take it.  my lungs are feeling a lot stronger than before. 

Friday 12/14/12

Life is good.  I woke up feeling refreshed and ready to go.  I am very happy today.  My chandelier was put up yesterday and looks amazing.  I love it so much.  My place is really coming together.  I have decided to get on the project of kitchen cabinets and taking care of that over xmas break.  i am looking forward to it.  It was really cold this morning.  I had ice on my windshield it took me a minute to get it off so i could drive.  i didn't walk this morning because i was so cold.

I am also on my period so the cramps aren't as bad as they have been they are actually okay but the only thing is i am bleeding a lot and having to change my tampon every hour which is weird because it is usually every two hours.

Breakfast:
grits

am snacks:
peanuts
granola bar

lunch:
mongolian beef
fried rice

pm snacks:
peanuts

dinner:
tuna casserole

Feelings:
i spoke with my wellness coach this morning and she is proud of me and i am as well.  feeling great the only thing that is trying to crush my spirit is the scale.  i know it is having fun because of my period and retaining water but still. that stuff really pisses me off. i am hoping that as soon as it is over i will drop a couple of lbs. 

Wed 12/12/12

I went for a walk this morning and took a different route.  i was glad that i did that.  my gps didnt log it correctly so i am not sure how many calories i actually burned.  anyway, i am researching to see what i need to do in order to lose weight more efficiently and it looks like i need to build up to burning 500 calories a day, everday. in order to burn 3500 which is one lb.  this just sounds very exhausting to me but really it isn't.  i was doing this before.  i just have to make sure that i eat the right things i need in order to fuel my body efficiently. like protein, fiber and things high in nutrients low calorie and low fat.  i am going to experiment a little bit and see how much i can handle.

this week my goal is to burn 1500 calories and as of this morning i burned 1200.  that just leaves 300 more to burn this week but i plan on doing that by this evening.

last night in my meditation class all i did was think about babies.  i couldnt get my mind off of it.  we were doing a body scan and that is where my mind went. to babies.  i really want a child now.

okay now just went on my mid morning walk so i have 72 calories left to burn this week to reach my 1500 cal burn goal.  this is sweet. i am getting faster.  i was walking at an avg pace of 3.6 mph when earlier i was doing 3.3 avg mph.  i really need to get back to walking 4.0 mph.  i am on my way.  my goal is to be there by february 2013.  all of this walking is having a positive impact on me.  my mind is more clear and i am not dwelling on a bunch of bs like i was earlier.  i think now that i have been in my  new position for a little longer i have settled and i am more relaxed now.  espeically now that i know who the players are in this game.

I really want some chips right now.  i am craving that crunch.  all i have had is mushy consistancy type foods today.  i guess i will go in the afternoon and grab some funyuns or doritos.

Tuesday 12/11/12

I am totally off of my game today.  I didn't do my morning walk because it was so cold but i did go for a late morning walk and an afternoon walk so i am okay.  i am looking forward to my meditation class this evening.  it is going to be great.  i hope i dont sit next to the same lady again.  she has been sitting next to me everytime so far and she is annoying. 

anyway, i am trying to keep myself moving more often throughout the day and i am finding that i feel so much better taking two walking breaks throughout my day.  this is a great thing.  i am going to keep this up.  i really like it.  i did my jackie workout on saturday and felt so nautious that i only did part of it i couldnt do the sit ups without wanting to vomit which is so wierd.  however, i have been feelign the effects of the fitness section i did.  i want to do it again today so that my muscles are able to get stronger.  i blame that dvd for making me slow this week on my walks.  my legs have been so sore.

i love that i still have no appetite the only thing that is bothering me these days is gas and constipation.  i had a difficult time sleeping last night because of stomach pains.  i dislike those so much. i have been trying to stay hydrated but i am wondering what else i can do so i dont get constipated.

Monday 12/10/12

Okay so how did i gain a lb and a half in two days.  hmmm.... that is weird and really bummed me out. The thing is the scale could be up because i am about to start my period, from eating pizza and from lifting weights.  either way this morning isn't the mornign to weigh myself.  i have been consitpated all weekend. 

Anyway, it is monday.  a monday without my coworker so i am here alone to deal with the boss and other jerks of the office.  i hope it goes by quickly.

i have done two walks today.  my two mile morning walk and my one mile mid morning break walk.  i feel great.  i am going to fit in one more walk today and i hope i can do this four days a week this week and then five days next week.  i love how i feel.  i am having a good monday as it turns out.

i have home depot coming to my home tonight to give me an estimate of how much it would costs to redo my kitchen cabinets and countertops and backsplash.  i dont really want the cabinets redone i really just want the countertops and the backsplash.  but this will give me an idea and piece of mind.

i am thinking that i will paint my bathroom this xmas break.  it will only take me a day the room isn't that big.

Friday 12/7/12

Food:

Breakfast:
Grits
Oatmeal

Snacks:
Apple
peanuts

Lunch:

Dinner:



Fitness:

Jackie DVD

Feelings:

I feel really great this morning.  It is cold so I didn't walk this morning. i lost another lb so i am extatic.  I love this.  I have to say it has never been this easy for me.  I decided to do my first 5K in February.  it is the color run at dodger stadium.  i am looking forward to it.  i was first on the fence about it but now i am totally down to participate. This is my first run challenge.  the last time i did soemthing like this was the aids walk in san francisco all those years ago in 1999.  wow, i am dating myself.

i went to dinner with two excoworkers last night.  i was wondering if they were going to flake but they didn't.  we had a great time. chatting for a couple of hours and getting all loud. it was a nice way to blow off steam from the week and work.  we decided to workout together in the new year on thursdays after work walking the perimeter of the university.  i hope this actually happens because i could really use the exercise.

2013 Goals:
Run 5K February
Weekly perimeter walks on thursdays january
zumba once a month not sure when
yoga once a month not sure when

Thursday 12/06/12

Food

Breakfast:
candy cane
grits

Snacks:
apples

Lunch:
homemade chicken tortilla soup

Dinner:
quesadilla

Fitness:

I went for a short walk this morning.  I wasn't able to complete my 2 mile walk because of my stomach being upset and having to race to the bathroom.  i wanted to stay near a restroom after that.  i only got in 15 minutes .80 of a mile.  my goodness.  i have been nautious and cold ever since.  what is going on there? now the headaches have started.


Feelings:

i have happy hour scheduled this evening with two ladies i used to work with.  we will see if either one of them flakes on me.  even if they dont show up i am still going to go and grab some grub from the place because it is really good there. 

i honestly don't know how i am feeling today.  i always enjoy the drive into work because i feel so hopful like there are so many great things that are going to happen to me.  i keep dreaming of having children.  i really want children.  i am ready for them. i keep dreaming of a little girl and i really hope she is coming soon.

I haven't been thinking or worrying about Zack as much as i used to which i am noticing now as something new.

i am feeling comfortable right now.  i have been real tired these past couple of days and i think it is because of how it gets dark at 430 these days.  just makes me want to go to sleep.

I am feeling the need to read a lot of books for some reason right now?  it must be because there isn't anything good on tv or in the theater or netflix.  the good stuff must be in books.  well its a good thing that i have a ton of books.

Wednesday 12/05/12

Well, yesterday was my second session doing mental yoga and i am in love with it.  i love the whole meditation thing.  i need to make more of a routine of it so i can get it down. i really enjoy meditation and the class i am in but i have having a difficult time finding a class.

anyway, today went by really quickly and i think that is because i didnt get to the office until 10am.  i guess thats the only way to do it.  my boss has been a bit of a pain so not being around her has been okay.  i really hope that soon i am no longer bothered by other people talking about me.  i think zack is going to be leaving us.  he asked for a letter of recommendation from someone so i guess he is on his way out.  i doubt i will ever see him again and i guess that is just fine with me. who needs friends like that.  he came by the office yesterday and said hi.  i was real busy at the time so i said hi and continued on with my work.  my whole thing is if you wanted to talk then maybe u should have let me know you would be stopping by.  i mean i havent talked to him since he flaked on me last friday for lunch.  he can suck it.

12/7/12 Tuesday

I am so happy this morning.  I lost 2 lbs now that is amazing.  I think the water flushed everything out of my system.  Thank goodness. I am so happy.  That means I have lost 4 lbs since I went to the doctor less than a month ago.  this is great.  Now, i am planning my fitness for the next two months and giving myself new goals and challenges.

Breakfast:
grits

snacks
apple
peanuts
granola

lunch
tuna noodle casserole

dinner
chicken chilli

Monday 12/3/12

I feel great this morning.  I am rested and I had a great weekend.  I got new pants that fit amazingly and I really should get them in more colors.  I love them. I didn't workout Saturday morning like I told my wellness coach i was going to do so i feel really bad about that.  i will do that workout when i get home since i wasn't able to go for my walk this morning due to the rain.  I know some folks still walk in the rain but not this chick.  I dont like wet feet.  I am really liking not having any appetite.  I like that food sounds gross to me.  that way i dont over eat or eat much of anything.  i am glad about that.  the only thing is when i finally feel hungry i am famished and make poor decisions based on that.

nothing looks or sounds good but once i get eating its okay. even though things do not taste the same.

Breakfast:
Grits

Feelings:
I have no appetite.  It took me an hour to get those grits down.  I am just not feeling it today.  I am so nautious.

Snacks:
Granola
peanuts
apple

Feelings:
Again,  I am eating because I know that if I don't I will feel really bad.


Lunch:
steamed veggies
rice
grilled chicken

Feelings:
I felt better after I eat this.  A lot better.  I was just eating because it was infront of me and I was scheduled to eat.  Not because I really really wanted it.

Dinner:
chicken chilli