Thursday 1/3/13

I have no appetite.  I have been eating and I dont feel full or any kind of satisfaction.  I am not sure how long this will last.  I am still nautious in the morning.  I hope I am not overeating.  I can't really tell.  My weight has been fluxuating like crazy so who knows what is going on.  I don't think I have been drinking enough water or eating enough veggies.  That is my goal and has been my goal for forever now.  I guess it is just difficult for me because I get tired of the taste and veggies go bad.  i think  I need to plan my meals better and measure them out.  I want to make more of a conscience effort to lose weight.

Goals

I did it.  I have sucessfully reached my weekly goal this week of burning 1500 calories through fitness.  Yes!  This feels great.  I talked to my wellness coach so she will now keep me accountable with doing my walking 3 times a day five days a week as well as running my first 5k.  i am so excited and nervous about this one. i havent been losing weight but i have been building endurance so i will take it.  my lungs are feeling a lot stronger than before. 

Friday 12/14/12

Life is good.  I woke up feeling refreshed and ready to go.  I am very happy today.  My chandelier was put up yesterday and looks amazing.  I love it so much.  My place is really coming together.  I have decided to get on the project of kitchen cabinets and taking care of that over xmas break.  i am looking forward to it.  It was really cold this morning.  I had ice on my windshield it took me a minute to get it off so i could drive.  i didn't walk this morning because i was so cold.

I am also on my period so the cramps aren't as bad as they have been they are actually okay but the only thing is i am bleeding a lot and having to change my tampon every hour which is weird because it is usually every two hours.

Breakfast:
grits

am snacks:
peanuts
granola bar

lunch:
mongolian beef
fried rice

pm snacks:
peanuts

dinner:
tuna casserole

Feelings:
i spoke with my wellness coach this morning and she is proud of me and i am as well.  feeling great the only thing that is trying to crush my spirit is the scale.  i know it is having fun because of my period and retaining water but still. that stuff really pisses me off. i am hoping that as soon as it is over i will drop a couple of lbs. 

Wed 12/12/12

I went for a walk this morning and took a different route.  i was glad that i did that.  my gps didnt log it correctly so i am not sure how many calories i actually burned.  anyway, i am researching to see what i need to do in order to lose weight more efficiently and it looks like i need to build up to burning 500 calories a day, everday. in order to burn 3500 which is one lb.  this just sounds very exhausting to me but really it isn't.  i was doing this before.  i just have to make sure that i eat the right things i need in order to fuel my body efficiently. like protein, fiber and things high in nutrients low calorie and low fat.  i am going to experiment a little bit and see how much i can handle.

this week my goal is to burn 1500 calories and as of this morning i burned 1200.  that just leaves 300 more to burn this week but i plan on doing that by this evening.

last night in my meditation class all i did was think about babies.  i couldnt get my mind off of it.  we were doing a body scan and that is where my mind went. to babies.  i really want a child now.

okay now just went on my mid morning walk so i have 72 calories left to burn this week to reach my 1500 cal burn goal.  this is sweet. i am getting faster.  i was walking at an avg pace of 3.6 mph when earlier i was doing 3.3 avg mph.  i really need to get back to walking 4.0 mph.  i am on my way.  my goal is to be there by february 2013.  all of this walking is having a positive impact on me.  my mind is more clear and i am not dwelling on a bunch of bs like i was earlier.  i think now that i have been in my  new position for a little longer i have settled and i am more relaxed now.  espeically now that i know who the players are in this game.

I really want some chips right now.  i am craving that crunch.  all i have had is mushy consistancy type foods today.  i guess i will go in the afternoon and grab some funyuns or doritos.

Tuesday 12/11/12

I am totally off of my game today.  I didn't do my morning walk because it was so cold but i did go for a late morning walk and an afternoon walk so i am okay.  i am looking forward to my meditation class this evening.  it is going to be great.  i hope i dont sit next to the same lady again.  she has been sitting next to me everytime so far and she is annoying. 

anyway, i am trying to keep myself moving more often throughout the day and i am finding that i feel so much better taking two walking breaks throughout my day.  this is a great thing.  i am going to keep this up.  i really like it.  i did my jackie workout on saturday and felt so nautious that i only did part of it i couldnt do the sit ups without wanting to vomit which is so wierd.  however, i have been feelign the effects of the fitness section i did.  i want to do it again today so that my muscles are able to get stronger.  i blame that dvd for making me slow this week on my walks.  my legs have been so sore.

i love that i still have no appetite the only thing that is bothering me these days is gas and constipation.  i had a difficult time sleeping last night because of stomach pains.  i dislike those so much. i have been trying to stay hydrated but i am wondering what else i can do so i dont get constipated.

Monday 12/10/12

Okay so how did i gain a lb and a half in two days.  hmmm.... that is weird and really bummed me out. The thing is the scale could be up because i am about to start my period, from eating pizza and from lifting weights.  either way this morning isn't the mornign to weigh myself.  i have been consitpated all weekend. 

Anyway, it is monday.  a monday without my coworker so i am here alone to deal with the boss and other jerks of the office.  i hope it goes by quickly.

i have done two walks today.  my two mile morning walk and my one mile mid morning break walk.  i feel great.  i am going to fit in one more walk today and i hope i can do this four days a week this week and then five days next week.  i love how i feel.  i am having a good monday as it turns out.

i have home depot coming to my home tonight to give me an estimate of how much it would costs to redo my kitchen cabinets and countertops and backsplash.  i dont really want the cabinets redone i really just want the countertops and the backsplash.  but this will give me an idea and piece of mind.

i am thinking that i will paint my bathroom this xmas break.  it will only take me a day the room isn't that big.

Friday 12/7/12

Food:

Breakfast:
Grits
Oatmeal

Snacks:
Apple
peanuts

Lunch:

Dinner:



Fitness:

Jackie DVD

Feelings:

I feel really great this morning.  It is cold so I didn't walk this morning. i lost another lb so i am extatic.  I love this.  I have to say it has never been this easy for me.  I decided to do my first 5K in February.  it is the color run at dodger stadium.  i am looking forward to it.  i was first on the fence about it but now i am totally down to participate. This is my first run challenge.  the last time i did soemthing like this was the aids walk in san francisco all those years ago in 1999.  wow, i am dating myself.

i went to dinner with two excoworkers last night.  i was wondering if they were going to flake but they didn't.  we had a great time. chatting for a couple of hours and getting all loud. it was a nice way to blow off steam from the week and work.  we decided to workout together in the new year on thursdays after work walking the perimeter of the university.  i hope this actually happens because i could really use the exercise.

2013 Goals:
Run 5K February
Weekly perimeter walks on thursdays january
zumba once a month not sure when
yoga once a month not sure when